"This experiment that I have been conducting on myself has failed miserably"

Adulation of Space, Rene Magritte, 1928

A young man connects the dots between his porn consumption and his newfound confusion and distress over his sex:

Am I trans or do I have a sissy hypno addiction that has taken over my life?

First, please don't downvote. This is an honest question/internal conflict that I have been struggling with for many years. I would really like to get some input and maybe help from others who have had experiences with sissy hypno.

So for several years I have struggled with the sissy hypno/erotic feminization genre. Before getting into it, I never imagined myself as a female or liked guys. Now many years later I only mentally/emotionally see myself as a female and can even check off every DSM-5 criteria for gender dysphoria. In real life, the desire to be female persists but my attraction to men remains only fantasy. I only like woman irl emotionally, spiritually and physically. Now I am very confused where hypno fantasy diverges from my self identity. Basically I want to know if my compulsive use of sissy hypno has changed my gender (and I have strong reason [to think] that [it] has) or is this something that is frequently experienced on the way to coming out as trans.

One last thing I want to mention is orgasm has a very strong effect on mental clarity over my gender/sexual feelings. Usually after a sissy hypno session I mentally scold myself for messing with my brain and the damage I cause myself by conditioning my arousal to a sexual orientation not in line with my genuine attraction. In other words, after an orgasm I just want to heal myself and find my female soulmate and not continue this downward spiral of damaging my sexuality. As for my gender feelings its a bit different, but i still feel its necessary to purge everything and heal myself because my gender and sexual feelings are deeply intertwined (just like in sissy hypno) and if I decide to keep one I will soon end up back into the negative cycle that i mentioned above.

So what is wrong with me? Do I need therapy or do I need nofap? [abstaining from porn and masturbation]

Please help because I am on the verge of purging everything related to my femininity for good.